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Monday, April 21, 2014

Happy Earth Day

San Francisco is what comes to mind when I think of Earth Day ... don't know why :) ...

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Happy Easter

Joy in the resurrection, from the film Jesus ...

Mary finds the tomb empty and doesn't recognize the resurrected Jesus at first ...

Then she does ...

He asks her to tell the other disciples he's alive ...

Joy :) ...

Where was Jesus on Holy Saturday?

Did Jesus spend Saturday in paradise? Or was he in hell, and if so,, was he suffering or was he triumphant? Or maybe he was nowhere to be found at all. Or maybe he was here in his tomb? ....

- Did Jesus Spend Saturday in Hell?, John Piper

- Why Von Balthasar Was Wrong About Holy Saturday, Stephen H. Webb

- Holy Saturday: Waiting to cross over, James Hanvey SJ

- Saturday Night in the Tomb, William Coleman

I like to imagine Him dancing there,
testing his limbs' limits once more, fitting
back into his body the way we might
slip back again into a forgotten
favorite shirt crumpled in the closet,
finding ourselves wrapped in an old love's
scent and remembering the moonflowers
opening in our gaze, steadying
for another long, glorious night of worship.
That's the God I believe in—the one
who can't wait to roll back the rock, leave nothing
behind, make an appearance everywhere,
yet who still loves these nights alone, the cool
darkness of His room, that sweet, solitary
music that keeps Him humming long after the dying's done.

Friday, April 18, 2014

"Understanding Good Friday"

The Via Dolorosa is not a sentimental journey. It is not the beautification of suffering, it is not the nobility of pain. God’s plan on Good Friday was not to invite us to contemplate a sense of cruelty redeemed, but rather of cruelty understood. We have to believe, and Jesus has allowed us to believe, that suffering can have a meaning. But suffering is not good, it is not beautiful, it is not destiny; it is not God’s will ...
- Understanding Good Friday, Ferdinand von Prondzynski

Thursday, April 17, 2014

"Will You Draw Near?"

Shall I this year attend this drama of love and betrayal? Shall I bring to it all the anguish and ecstasy of my own loves and betrayals, or shall I stand at a distance, protecting myself awhile? Perhaps I can just be part of the chorus and do some suitable garment-rending for the purposes of a nice bit of "purgation of pity and fear"? Or is it that something deeper is required, something that costs not less than everything? I hover at the edge, uncertain at the alternatives set before me ...
- Will You Draw Near? Meditations for Holy Week - Sarah Coakley

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Holy Thursday

I'm a bit early, but ...

I've always been more impressed by movies than the written word or images. Here are the two movie versions I've seen of Jesus washing the disciples' feet at the Last Supper. The first, from The Gospel of John, is the one I like best, partly because Mary Magdalene is included in the scene ....

The other is from The Passion of the Christ ...

Monday, April 14, 2014

Hercules and confession

- Hercules reads a message from Nemesis

My latest DVD from the library is the first season of Hercules. I decided to pick it up because it's connected to some good memories .... I had been watching reruns of the series on tv back when my mom and cats were all still alive and while I was in RCIA class. The reason I especially remember RCIA is that towards the end of our classes we in the group were supposed to make our first confession and during that I mentioned to the priest that it would be nice to have a boyfriend like the tv Hercules ... he corrected me: 'you mean a *husband* like Hercules' ... heh ;) Yes, sometimes the special effects, acting, and writing leave something to be desired, but still the character of Hercules is just so good - kind, honest, brave, and willing to risk his life to help even strangers - that it almost makes up for the deficiencies.

Here's the theme music ...

And here's one of the many episodes that can be found online - it begins with Hercules and his best friend Iolaus camping out on their way to a festival ...

A Word to the Elect

Saw a link today at Thinking Anglicans to a post at Modern Church blog. Here's just a bit of the post ...

Hell: the worst theory ever

I have recently received an email warning me of eternal damnation in hell.


How do people who believe in hell cope with it?

1) At the height of medieval Christendom hell was only for a few people round the edges of the world. Most people could assume it was nothing to do with them or anyone else they knew. I think many Christians today take a similar view; they accept the existence of hell because that is what they have been taught, but they do not know much about it and they have never thought that anyone they know might end up there.

2) Some take pleasure in the prospect of criminals or unbelievers being punished in hell. In my experience these people tend to have a black-and-white view of humanity. This fits the belief that hell is something you either don’t get at all or get for eternity. They locate themselves among the people who will not go there – otherwise they would not have gained any pleasure from others going there.

3) Some allow for the possibility that they may be heading for hell themselves. In that tragic period between the 14th and 17th centuries many people spent their lives in terror of what was to come after death. Few do that today, but I suspect that many more would, if they were more consistent about their beliefs. The author of this video gives no direct indication that he may end up there himself, but the very fact that he invests so much in this preaching makes me wonder whether, deep down inside, he fears that what he says to other people may also apply to him.

4) There are some emotionless ones who are committed to believing in hell, but have never felt the significance of it. This must say something about their personalities. Perhaps it is more common among career preachers who have learned the skill of earning their bread and butter by threatening damnation while keeping their personal lives completely separate. Is the author of this video one of these? Possibly, though my guess is that he is a very frightened man ...

I also wonder how people who do believe in hell manage to cope with such a belief. I assume people like Thomas Aquinas, who believed those in heaven enjoy the tortures of the righteously damned, must think they themselves and those they love could never end up there. And some, like CS Lewis, make peace with the concept of hell by changing its traditional nature, asserting that it's self-imposed. But I myself can't find a way to make hell ok.

Some further reading : Seeing Hell: Do the Saints in Heaven Behold the Sufferings of the Damned (And How Do They Respond)

And a poem ...

A Word to the Elect - Anne Bronte

You may rejoice to think yourselves secure;
You may be grateful for the gift divine–
That grace unsought, which made your black hearts pure,
And fits your earth-born souls in Heaven to shine.

But, is it sweet to look around, and view
Thousands excluded from that happiness
Which they deserved, at least, as much as you,–
Their faults not greater, nor their virtues less?
And, wherefore should you love your God the more,
Because to you alone his smiles are given;
Because he chose to pass the many o'er,
And only bring the favoured few to Heaven?

And, wherefore should your hearts more grateful prove,
Because for ALL the Saviour did not die?
Is yours the God of justice and of love?
And are your bosoms warm with charity?

Say, does your heart expand to all mankind?
And, would you ever to your neighbor do–
The weak, the strong, the enlightened, and the blind–
As you would have your neighbor do to you?

And, when you, looking on your fellow-men,
Behold them doomed to endless misery,
How can you talk of joy and rapture then?–
May God withhold such cruel joy from me!

That none deserve eternal bliss I know;
Unmerited the grace in mercy given:

But, none shall sink to everlasting woe,
That have not well deserved the wrath of Heaven.
And, oh! there lives within my heart
A hope, long nursed by me;
(And, should its cheering ray depart,
How dark my soul would be!)

That as in Adam all have died,
In Christ shall all men live;
And ever round his throne abide,
Eternal praise to give.

That even the wicked shall at last
Be fitted for the skies;
And, when their dreadful doom is past,
To life and light arise.

I ask not, how remote the day,
Nor what the sinners' woe,
Before their dross is purged away;
Enough for me, to know

That when the cup of wrath is drained,
The metal purified,
They'll cling to what they once disdained,
And live by Him that died.

Sunday, April 13, 2014


In the yard today ....

Holy Week links

- NT Wright: On Palm Sunday, Jesus Rides into the Perfect Storm

- James Alison: Three Holy Week Sermons

- John Milbank: The Ethics of Self-Sacrifice

- David Bentley Hart: An Orthodox Easter

- Vincent Nichols: Holy Week through art ...

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Holy Week: and so it begins

I've been putting off thinking about the whole lead-up to Easter ... Lent, and now Palm Sunday. I guess tomorrow's event in the gospels was a happy one - Jesus being cheered by the people of Jerusalem as he entered town. Here's a clip from The Gospel of John ...

But I can't help thinking ahead to Friday. I used to be more upbeat about it all - even had a post once on the stations of the cross.

- Crucifixion from the Stations of the Cross at The Cloisters in New York City. The inscription reads, "Through the Sign of the Holy Cross, from our enemies, our God frees us." - Wikipedia

But now I just feel sort of morose about Holy Week.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Crossing Lines

Those to whom evil is done do evil in return. - an Auden quote from the first episode

My latest DVD rental is the tv series Crossing Lines ...

an English-language French and German television series .... Former NYPD officer Carl Hickman's life has fallen apart after he was injured on the job; he has become addicted to morphine and is working as a garbage collector at a carnival in the Netherlands. He is recruited to join the International Criminal Court's special crime unit, (a fictionalized unit). Based in The Hague, it investigates a variety of crimes that cross international boundaries. The unit includes an anti-mafia covert specialist from Italy, a tech specialist from Germany, a crimes analyst from France, and a weapons specialist and tactical expert from Northern Ireland.

So far I like it. The actor who plays the American ex-cop is William Fichtner, who's done a lot of work but is best known to me as the blind scientist in Contact. His character is very interesting with his physical and emotional wounds. A neat thing about the show too is that we get to see lots of European locations, and I like listening to the accents, especially that of the character from Northern Ireland. It is violent, though, for those who care about stuff like that. Here's a trailer ...

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Jesus' wife and Shakespeare

The papyrus fragment which mentions Jesus' wife has been found to be authentic, time-wise ... Harvard Magazine: The Jesus’s Wife Fragment: The Scientific Evidence. For more information, see Duke NT professor Mark Goodacre's post: The Jesus' Wife Fragment is Back.

Would it matter if Jesus had been married? Depends on how you look at it. The Catholic Church would, I think, have a harder time justifying mandatory celibacy for priests if Jesus had been married, and James Martin SJ has a post asserting that Jesus was *not* married ... Did Jesus Have a Wife? No. One of the arguments Fr. Martin makes for why he believes Jesus wasn't married is that being single would have allowed Jesus to make a "single-hearted commitment to God".

I'm unconvinced by the idea that being married would get in the way of being wholeheartedly devoted to God or others ... most (all?) of the apostles chosen by Jesus, including Peter, were married, and there are many examples of married people devoted to God and their neighbors (like Albert Schweitzer). Love and devotion aren't like a finite pile of widgets that gets depleted if used in intimate personal relationships ... loving only increases love. As Shakespeare had Juliet say ... My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite :) ...

Wednesday, April 09, 2014

The Church, the Philippines, contraception

- photo credit: AFP

Philippines Goes Against Church and Upholds Family Planning Law

This is a good thing for women in particular and the Philippines in general. The Church has blocked women's access to birth control in the Philippines for over a decade, and organized protests against the Supreme Court's approval of the Reproductive Health Bill, deeming it "evil" and threatening to excommunicate the President for signing the bill.

A Jesuit, Joaquin Bernas SJ, wrote that the separation of church and state means only that the state cannot institute a state church, not that the church shouldn't be able to influence the laws of a state ... John Courtney Murray SJ would spin in his grave.

The Church's opposition to birth control in the Philippines has played out against the backdrop of terrible poverty, one of the fastest growing populations in Asia (100 million people), and an unintended pregnancy rate of 50%. And unfortunately, though the Court has approved the HR Bill, the Church was able to restrict some of its provisions ... the court declared unconstitutional the inclusion of abortifacients as contraceptives, a requirement that church-run health facilities provide contraception, and a ban on health-care providers who refuse to offer contraception. (The Tablet).

Mind-boggling that the Church chooses to make such a stand on such a questionable and contested teaching.

Read more about all this ... Women of Philippine slum welcome birth control victory

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

More roses ...

from the yard. A yellow one from the miniature rose bush ...

A pink tea rose ...

One of the coral-colored roses ...

A little white rose bush ...

The tall climbing red rose bush ...

Monday, April 07, 2014

What I thought about today

- reading about St Walburge's Church

- Ancient Egyptian Mummy Found With Brain, No Heart. This reminded me of ancient art history class, in which we learned about canopic jars, and a ceramics class in which I made one :)

- Beautiful gecko!

- The Catholic church must apologise for its role in Rwanda's genocide. This reminded me of my past post: The Church and Rwanda

- From Michael O’Loughlin: Why does progressive Pope Francis allow anti-gay bishops to preach hate? ... and related ... The Pope’s Tone Softens — But The Vatican Is Still Fighting LGBT Rights Around The World

- Finally, I looked up a clip from the movie The Gospel of John showing Jesus (Henry Ian Cusick) raising Lazarus. I have many questions about this event ... why did Jesus wait until Lazarus died ... why is this raising from the dead so much more politically volatile than the raising of the little girl or the guy in Nain ... why did he raise them: is being alive better than being dead? ....

My un-cat, Fluffy

I've been trying very hard not to have a pet since Kermit died - I worry I can't see well enough anymore to take care of a pet, not to mention not being able to afford the vet bills - but one of the stray cats who have been hanging around has been especially persistent ... I call him/her Fluffy. Please God, let Fluffy be a boy or fixed! ;) The cat is too shy to even let me close enough to touch him so the relationship is limited to me leaving out dry food and him eating it. Four stray cats now eating the food ... I'm so doomed.

Sunday, April 06, 2014

Captain America and the Mad Hatter

*** Beware: a spoiler below for Captain America: The Winter Soldier ****

I've not yet seen the movie but hope to soon. I've been a fan of Captain America since I was a little kid reading Marvel comics, and I like the film version of him even more. This second edition of the series looks like it will be interesting, given the political anti-ends-justify-means theme of the story (think the opposite of Zero Dark Thirty) ... from Mother Jones: "Captain America: The Winter Soldier" Is About Obama's Terror-Suspect Kill List, Say the Film's Directors ...

[...] "[Marvel] said they wanted to make a political thriller," Joe Russo, who directed the film with his brother Anthony, tells Mother Jones. "So we said if you want to make a political thriller, all the great political thrillers have very current issues in them that reflect the anxiety of the audience...That gives it an immediacy, it makes it relevant. So [Anthony] and I just looked at the issues that were causing anxiety for us, because we read a lot and are politically inclined. And a lot of that stuff had to do with civil liberties issues, drone strikes, the president's kill list, preemptive technology"—all themes they worked into the film, working closely with screenwriters Christopher Markus and Stephen McFeely ...

Some backstory ... in the first Captain American film, Steve Rogers tried to join the army to fight the Nazis (WWII) with his best friend, Bucky Barnes, but he was rejected as too frail and sickly ....

Later, he participated in an experimental super-soldier procedure that made him much stronger ...

And he became Captain America and did fight alongside his friend till a tragic accident ended Bucky's life ...

Or did it? ;) In Captain America: The Winter Soldier, the Winter Soldier referenced is a mysterious masked assassin who surprisingly turns out to be Bucky. A clip showing the Winter Soldier ...

The reason I bring up the Winter Soldier is that the actor who plays him is more familiar to me as the Mad Hatter from Once Upon a Time. Here he helps the evil queen travel via his hat's magic to Wonderland :) ...

Pink rose

If you double click to look closely, you can see a little big on the bottom petal of the rose :) ...

Saturday, April 05, 2014

Today's muzak

As I stood at the ice cream cold case in the grocery store, gazing at the Häagen-Dazs vanilla, this song began to play on the muzak :) ...